Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Keep me away

Not really a continuation of my last post...but still about the boyfriend. When I first met the boyfriend, I thought I liked him. I thought he was a good guy and that my friend would be happy with him. And I could accept them together. Now, with all the stuff going on, I've realized that I never really liked the boyfriend. I only tolerated him. I tolerated him for the sake of my friend because he was happy with him. However, with all the crap going on and the boyfriend slowly sinking down the list of people I don't like, I've realized something. Now, I have no way of proving this so this is just my speculation. I'm pretty sure that the boyfriend only tolerates me too. And that he doesn't like me as much. You may ask "But what gives you this feeling? Why do you think he doesn't really like you?" The fact that I feel he's keeping my friend away from me gives me that feeling. We live two hours away from each other. I've gone down to visit him a couple of times. He has yet to come up here. Anytime we try to plan something, he finds out that the boyfriend made plans for them to do something else. And supposedly, the boyfriend has a class up here at some point, so my friend was going to come along and hang out with me. The boyfriend knew when the class was a week ago. Now, when asked, he shrugs and says "I don't know". And I just get this feeling that he's doing that cause he knows I want to know. It just bugs me. I want to see my friend. I miss him. And as he keeps saying he wants to come up here, I can't really go down there. It sucks.

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